During the dissertation phase, I felt like I was in a glass maze I saw the end over here so I went over here. It wasn’t there. Idiot. That’s not the way! Why would you think this is the way!? The end is that way I was told. So I went that way. Money money money. Student loan check. A Nother several thousand dollars for tuition check. Stupid! Everyone knows that is not the way. Faculty didn’t say that to me. I said that to me. So if you find yourself calling yourself very ugly names, stop it! You are not in a PhD program because you are stupid! Remember that!